I am just a wreck. In my usual hunt for inspiration for ideas on a project, I ran across a YouTube video which led me to "Milliande Art Community," a "mixed media art community for creative women." It was painful, but I added a post and a picture. I have to take steps to expose myself to comments and even criticism to thicken my skin. The reason I chose this group is that the creator/owner stresses the positive vibe of the site. We encourage, not bust chops. Yeah! I need that.
Yesterday I had an epiphany. Well, I think I'm overstating the thought process, but I realized and really admitted to myself that I keep spending hours of time looking at the books and internet for "inspiration," but I think I'm just really just delaying doing the work. As I looked around on Amazon for a book that I saw and wish I'd bought but can't find at the store any longer, I kept seeing books I already own. After so many, "I've got that one, oops I've already got that one," it hit me that I need to just stop. Stop looking at someone else to direct my creativity. Stop looking for something that will make my art better, i.e. more like theirs. So I zoomed around and cleaned up today so that I can get in the studio and really work. There will be no reference books open or off the shelf! Let's see what I can do.
